What is it with this feeling we all have of wanting more? In whatever sense it may be, we always want something bigger, better, tastier, something more. But when will it ever be enough?
I remember when I was just a child I felt sort of sad a lot of the time. I had a great life, great friends, amazing parents, and really anything a kid could ask for. But everything hit me so damn hard that it was hard not to allow all the heartaches to get to me now and again. There seemed to be so much pain everywhere, I seen it in the eyes of many adults in my life and I didn’t understand. Wasn’t growing up and being able to do whatever you want, like ice-cream for breakfast, the best part of this life thing? I mean, you get to buy your own house, make your own rules and one day get married and bring kids into this beautiful world? Why did everyone seem so down on life?
I think I can say I understand now…. it’s too much and not enough all at the same time. There are so many opportunities out there, so many options, choices, questions and it’s overwhelming to say the least. We never know if we picked the right choice. We get down on ourselves some days which makes it so easy to question if we would ever feel this way had we decided to make this choice instead of that one. A job opportunity for example. Choosing A instead of B may seem like the best option at the time but in a couple weeks when you are feeling down for no apparent reason, it’s so easy to blame the decisions you made.
Also, not fully knowing why we feel the way we feel does not make it easy for us to navigate through the issue and find a solution in order to make us feel more satisfied, more whole.
Will we ever be satisfied or will we always want what we can’t or don’t have? Is anything ever enough or are we too stubborn?
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