Dark Journal Entries / December 6, 2023

Dark Journal Entry When Dreams of Death Were Better Than Reality

Here is a dark journal entry when dreams of death were better than reality. Written when I couldn’t find enough doors to hit…

Fear,

to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. That nothing could vanquish me. Insisting on this story was a form of mind control, but for the most part, it worked. Every time I felt something horrible cohering in my imagination, I pushed it away. I simply did not let myself become afraid. Fear begets fear. Power begets power.

I willed myself to beget power. And it wasn't long before I actually wasn't afraid. -Cheryl Strayed, Brave Enough

The useless days will add up to something. The shitty waitressing jobs. The hours writing in your journal. The long meandering walks. The days reading poetry and story collections and novels and dead people's diaries and wondering about sex and God and whether you should shave under your arms or not.

These things are your becoming.

-Cheryl Strayed

You're looking for the explanation, the loophole, the bright twist in the dark tale that reverses your story's course. But it won't reverse--for me or for you or for anyone who has ever been wronged, which is everyone. Allow your acceptance of the universality of suffering to be a transformative experience. You do that by simply looking at what pains you squarely in the face and then moving on.

no mask can be worn forever

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Dark Journal Entry When Dreams of Death Were Better Than Reality